Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 20, 2007, at 13:56:30
In reply to Re: Self-Delusion and losing my mind » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by Honore on July 20, 2007, at 13:05:36
You are so kind honore. I don't know what I did to deserve such a clever friend. I'm glad that others see my solid core. I try hard to have a solid exterior, despite core meltdown. Despite the non-linearity of my conscious experience.
My T told me today that I am very poised. Meaning (i think) that I'm very aware of the way I present myself to others. I will post more about that session later, to the dismay of anyone admiring succinctness.
The inside screams "let me out" and "shut up they're watching you" and when eyes are closed gruesome scenes appear in rapid succession like a powerpoint slide show advancing at 1.5 Hz. and the little whispers and creepycrawlies from the corners of the periphery.
apprehending reality is tenuous. fragile.
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