Posted by OzLand on July 20, 2007, at 20:08:41
In reply to Re: losing my mind ***si triggers*** » OzLand, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 20, 2007, at 9:36:34
You seem to be going through at least some similar stuff that I went through in the past. I had a whole year at Menninger's that is a blur plus the two years before. I don't know if you would call what I had psychotic episodes as they called them then, or were they dissosiative episodes. All I wanted was to get stable and feel more connected with my self and others. Of course as that started to occur after inpatient of 2.5 years, then they wanted me to start addressing the abuse, and I said I was fine, and my therapist would just chuckle. He knew that someday I would have to reckon with that too.
What I learned later in my training is that it is okay that I did not deal with the abuse then and just focused on developing a more cohesive me rather than someone with these split off parts that I was not always aware of. I learned that we do what we can do at any given time, and then later one can always go back and do another piece of the work; no shame in that. I think that is what has kept me from knocking myself over the head for not doing the work then that I am now faced with doing. Hey, I had many good years or maybe I should say many decent years before all the crap surfaced again. It can work, and it could work indefinitely. No one really knows. I was off of all meds for about 10 years.
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