Posted by muffled on July 19, 2005, at 22:50:45
In reply to Re: withdrawal - booze, lexipro, dignity, posted by afraid of everything on July 18, 2005, at 8:42:31
I used to drink. for a lotta years. It was EVERYTHING to me. EVERYTHING. I lived to drink. But things started to fall apart, my mind, my body, then son of a *itch, the d*mn stuff stopped working. I tried everything, diff. brands, types, time of day, mixing w/drugs, lots, little, fast, slow- NOTHING worked. Booze just didn't do its thing no more. B*stard turned on me. Ended up hospitalized, I'd lost my best friend, my life. Took me a long time to get over it. But now I'm doing ok (10+ years)- still miss my friend the bottle. Still hits me in the gut now and again how bad I miss it. But I am definately better off without it. I could never see it at the time. Alcoholics are supreem deniers and liars, to ourselves and others. Dunno who or what took the booze away from me- some higher power I guess, there was no ever loving way I'd had done it myself. So stopping drinking IS possible, and it IS good. I don't miss the fear, guilt, shakes, DT's, blackouts, hurting those I cared about, etc- don't miss that at all.Its hard work but worth it. Now hopefully my greatest fear will never happen, that I'll be having DT,s and have no money to buy booze and I'll be lying on the street with people stepping around me, pissed my pants, then some cop drags me in the alley and kicks me some to keep me out of the way for awhile. Do wanna go there man. Don't have to now.
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