Posted by JMC on July 26, 2005, at 13:43:15
In reply to Re: withdrawal - booze, lexipro, dignity, posted by muffled on July 19, 2005, at 22:50:45
Ok here goes, I’ll see if I can make a lucid argument that makes a dent
1) It is not the bottle it is an attitude. The attitude is “F*it”. But in reality it is “F*ourselves” For a million reasons that don’t mean a thing, but mean everything. We are mad because our ability to “turn it off” no longer works. It is like the remote broke on the TV and you have to get up and change the channel, adjust the sound… manually. I know it is a royal pain. Over and over SSDD Same S*Different Day.
2) Speaking of pain, that is what you are in. Most diseases come with pain. So detox with help it will ease the short term pain. When some one in AA says “this to shall pass” think to your self B.S. Some people never forget. Some people never forgive. Some things never go away. This is their baggage; you were not placed on this earth to make others happy. They are responsible for their own happiness. Just as you are responsible for your own.
3) Don’t worry about family, jobs, land lords, love, friendship, yes it is part their fault, alcoholics are easy targets, active we get taken big time. But don’t worry they wont be around much longer. They will leave. Then the “F*it” attitude will be for the loss. Another great reason to get toasted “F*it”. This is where rational thought comes in; we know what we have to do for ourselves.
4) Trapped in a vicious circle are you not? Here comes a platitude so duck “Life is a do it your self job” You are #1. Take care of you. Make the call. Not the I am sorry call but the I need help call. Not to friends but to a professional or a crisis line. Drink get sloppy, blame the world, friends, family, lovers, and wake up, feel guilty, drink it away, another day. Vicious circle, break it today, to hell with every one else right now.
5) Stop carrying around that baggage it is old and stinks drop it right were you stand. Don’t try to give it to any one, thinking I’ll show you, waste of time, Just drop it.
6) Stopping the drink is easy four days of physical pain then, It hits out of the blue if you make the rational effort. It is just a bad drug for what you are trying to cure. Sober for 10 days or so and you physically do not need another drink. The hard part is living with the detritus of an imploded life. Great reason to say “F*it” again, but you won’t. why?
7) This is a disease; I really doubt you asked for this on a conscious level. Like asking for cancer. Of course I wanted cancer, just die get it over with, I am worthless. If that is what I really wanted I would have committed suicide way before this point. Rationally we want to live, and rationally you will.
8) After detox try to find a residential treatment program that does not try to load you up on psychotropic drugs out of the gate. It takes a good 10-15 days of observation to see if another diagnosis or issue is under the alcohol abuse. Are you self medicating for; Major Depression, Panic and Anxiety disorders, Post Traumatic Stress? This is called Dual Diagnosis, and all treatable. Of course your Dual Diagnosis may just be Alcohol and your and A* hole. Welcome to the club. But give it the time to find out before you get gorked out on psychotropic meds; Prozac, Lexapro, Paxel, Lithium, Xanax………… If you have a family Doc use him or her to guide you to the right people.
9) You may still have someone that loves you, don’t burn that bridge. I did and it made the journey a little harder.
10) And last it is all about you. Spend the time now, or it will be forced on you later
Cheers,
JMC
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